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badass_tiger) wrote2025-07-04 07:58 pm
badass_tiger) wrote2025-07-04 07:58 pm
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Resistance and embarrassing myself over Kai again (spoilers)
I'm replaying the game and just got to Kai's level 6 bond event and it just ... gets me every time, man. Not that I fall for his prank again or anything but everything in there is ... oh it just hits. GoA is not lacking in feels when it comes to the storyline, like I really love Kanata's bond event with Sorano, and Murasame's with Appare feels significant as well, but, well, I guess that's the reason that I went with Kai. It's because his bond events just get to me.
One of his very first bond events is him reaching out to his fellow oni to suggest they move to the surface world because he believes it's what's best for them and I? hello? I hate saying this but I don't know how else to say it, I just love like leaders? kings? being good leaders? and it's so fucking unexpected for Kai to turn out to be someone who cares a lot for his people? Or well it's not unexpected once you know him but when you first meet him he just seems to be a bum, a layabout. But I guess it's hinted at when he rallies everyone together for the Mikoshi Melee, like the MC even says he was great about bringing the villagers together for that. Anyway I wasn't expecting it but damn it his line like 'Some god I am, can't even get through to my own people' and I ARGH
I feel like the devs made Kai to spite me, I really do. I mean not actually obviously but like I didn't like Kai at first and then I go through his bond events and each one just appeals to one of my moe points specifically like hello? I came out here to have a good time and I am feeling so attacked right now?
The thing is, right, I think, that I didn't like Kai at first. Not that I hated him or was offended by his character, he's just portrayed as a bit of a layabout at first and I don't like that in guys! And this is going to sound silly but when I was young, I had a real fear of falling in love with someone I disliked. Like I was actually scared of this. I'm pretty sure it's related to my OCD as I have serious issues with intrusive thoughts but that's not important right now.
I can't describe how I felt when I first thought 'Maybe I'll get to know Kai then'. Because I was just thinking 'Well Murasame's bond events have kind of put me off him a little bit so I'll just get to know a couple of the other guys before I decide to marry him' and when I looked at Kai, when I got his bond level up screen, I was like 'Oh, this guy ...' like seriously. But I had already gone off of Kurama and I said to myself, well, Kai has a bit of a sense of responsibility, he has that going for him, but when I thought about the idea of going for Kai, I felt a resistance. Have you ever felt like that? When you start thinking something and your brain goes 'Naur we're not going there'? Like that's how I felt at first. I had that feeling of 'But I don't want to like him'.
Even after his level 6 bond event, even though it made me laugh a lot, I was still reluctant. Heck, when he takes his mask off, everybody else's reaction is 'Oh no he's hot!' and like when I thought that it made me feel a bit uncomfortable. Resistance again. But I was definitely starting to like him. Then I got through the confession scene and the first date event all of which made me laugh a lot and okay when he admits that Yachiyo is right that he can't believe how lucky he is to have you, I was a little touched. Just a little.
And then his next bond event. Oh God. When you find out he's trying to pay off his tab. ARGH. I felt my resistance being pulled on. Like a piece of wood covering up a hole in the wall that's being ripped away. I was like there ain't no way THERE AIN'T NO WAY he's doing this. But good God he was doing it and I was crumbling. Is this what people mean when they talk about their walls coming down? ARGH. DAMN YOU KAI. His bond event with Ura just ... dealt the finishing blow. I was a Kai enjoyer from that day. AGAINST MY WILL, MIND YOU. Even now I feel my tsuntsun side coming out. I didn't even know I still had a tsuntsun side!
Sigh ... going through his bond events agian, I just see all these things in a new light, and I like feel it, you know. Like I'm enjoying the other characters' bond events too but Kai's tugs at my heartstrings knowing what's coming next. ARGH. I ACTUALLY LIKE HIM. HOW DID IT COME TO THIS. When he makes you cry in his bond level 6 event and then just starts GROVELLING argh I love that I love him going 'I'm sorry it's my fault it's all my fault' YES IT IS IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT and then he has the AUDACITY after ALL THAT to be sincere for a moment and ask if he's being a good liaison. NO KAI YOU'RE AN AWFUL LIAISON BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO DECLARE WAR ON YOU ON BEHALF OF THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE.
Damn you Kairandouji DAMN YOU. God I love him but I'm not happy about it. Not one bit. I'm smiling? No it's a grimace I assure you. Shut up.
Edit: The thing is that this has never happened to me before, okay. Even when it takes me a while to choose who to marry, I just almost never change my mind about characters once I've met them. The way humans write people, like there are character stereotypes that writers tend to fall into, so once you know enough characters, you can tell what a character is going to be pretty early on. WHAT I'M SAYING IS, right, I think I'm usually a good judge of character with fictional characters and I feel like I'm being proven wrong and I DON'T LIKE IT.
One of his very first bond events is him reaching out to his fellow oni to suggest they move to the surface world because he believes it's what's best for them and I? hello? I hate saying this but I don't know how else to say it, I just love like leaders? kings? being good leaders? and it's so fucking unexpected for Kai to turn out to be someone who cares a lot for his people? Or well it's not unexpected once you know him but when you first meet him he just seems to be a bum, a layabout. But I guess it's hinted at when he rallies everyone together for the Mikoshi Melee, like the MC even says he was great about bringing the villagers together for that. Anyway I wasn't expecting it but damn it his line like 'Some god I am, can't even get through to my own people' and I ARGH
I feel like the devs made Kai to spite me, I really do. I mean not actually obviously but like I didn't like Kai at first and then I go through his bond events and each one just appeals to one of my moe points specifically like hello? I came out here to have a good time and I am feeling so attacked right now?
The thing is, right, I think, that I didn't like Kai at first. Not that I hated him or was offended by his character, he's just portrayed as a bit of a layabout at first and I don't like that in guys! And this is going to sound silly but when I was young, I had a real fear of falling in love with someone I disliked. Like I was actually scared of this. I'm pretty sure it's related to my OCD as I have serious issues with intrusive thoughts but that's not important right now.
I can't describe how I felt when I first thought 'Maybe I'll get to know Kai then'. Because I was just thinking 'Well Murasame's bond events have kind of put me off him a little bit so I'll just get to know a couple of the other guys before I decide to marry him' and when I looked at Kai, when I got his bond level up screen, I was like 'Oh, this guy ...' like seriously. But I had already gone off of Kurama and I said to myself, well, Kai has a bit of a sense of responsibility, he has that going for him, but when I thought about the idea of going for Kai, I felt a resistance. Have you ever felt like that? When you start thinking something and your brain goes 'Naur we're not going there'? Like that's how I felt at first. I had that feeling of 'But I don't want to like him'.
Even after his level 6 bond event, even though it made me laugh a lot, I was still reluctant. Heck, when he takes his mask off, everybody else's reaction is 'Oh no he's hot!' and like when I thought that it made me feel a bit uncomfortable. Resistance again. But I was definitely starting to like him. Then I got through the confession scene and the first date event all of which made me laugh a lot and okay when he admits that Yachiyo is right that he can't believe how lucky he is to have you, I was a little touched. Just a little.
And then his next bond event. Oh God. When you find out he's trying to pay off his tab. ARGH. I felt my resistance being pulled on. Like a piece of wood covering up a hole in the wall that's being ripped away. I was like there ain't no way THERE AIN'T NO WAY he's doing this. But good God he was doing it and I was crumbling. Is this what people mean when they talk about their walls coming down? ARGH. DAMN YOU KAI. His bond event with Ura just ... dealt the finishing blow. I was a Kai enjoyer from that day. AGAINST MY WILL, MIND YOU. Even now I feel my tsuntsun side coming out. I didn't even know I still had a tsuntsun side!
Sigh ... going through his bond events agian, I just see all these things in a new light, and I like feel it, you know. Like I'm enjoying the other characters' bond events too but Kai's tugs at my heartstrings knowing what's coming next. ARGH. I ACTUALLY LIKE HIM. HOW DID IT COME TO THIS. When he makes you cry in his bond level 6 event and then just starts GROVELLING argh I love that I love him going 'I'm sorry it's my fault it's all my fault' YES IT IS IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT and then he has the AUDACITY after ALL THAT to be sincere for a moment and ask if he's being a good liaison. NO KAI YOU'RE AN AWFUL LIAISON BECAUSE I'M ABOUT TO DECLARE WAR ON YOU ON BEHALF OF THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE.
Damn you Kairandouji DAMN YOU. God I love him but I'm not happy about it. Not one bit. I'm smiling? No it's a grimace I assure you. Shut up.
Edit: The thing is that this has never happened to me before, okay. Even when it takes me a while to choose who to marry, I just almost never change my mind about characters once I've met them. The way humans write people, like there are character stereotypes that writers tend to fall into, so once you know enough characters, you can tell what a character is going to be pretty early on. WHAT I'M SAYING IS, right, I think I'm usually a good judge of character with fictional characters and I feel like I'm being proven wrong and I DON'T LIKE IT.